black & white clouds.

A couple of days ago I started a post that was me under a deep black cloud. I just felt hopeless and ineffective. In all ways - it seemed that everything I tried failed for one reason or another, right down to running on my treadmill thanks to my daughter peeing on it (after sitting on the toilet for 15 minutes). Funny how 2 days later & I feel completely different.

Life has actually been very good lately - lots of fun with Clara and cousins, followed by lots of fun with neighborhood friends and their kids. When I feel like this I feel like anything is possible - when I have my days like a couple of days ago it feels like absolutely nothing is possible and all attempts are futile.

I'm really looking forward to trying the hot yoga offered at the new Grayslake studio! When you live in the city and have everything available it's easy to take it for granted, then when you move to the hinterlands all of a sudden you think that you would go to hot yoga every day if only you could. Middle path, middle path, middle path... maybe once or 2x a week?

The farmer's market starts this week and I'm looking forward to that - Big Bird will be there from 3:30-4!! PARTY. Also there is a man there that sharpens knives. Mine have not had a professional sharpening in the 10 years that they have been in my possession & it shows. Boning a chicken was an exercise in strength the other day (and luck that the knife didn't slip & cut me based on how hard I had to work at it).

In other news of slackerly behavior I just organized the cupboard that holds our drinking glasses and located my to-go cup that I have been looking for for THREE years. It's like getting a surprise gift to find that thing!! I loved that cup. My co-worker at IBM, Mike Scordino, gave that thing to me about 15 years ago because the crappy Caribou Coffee one that I was using had a leak and I walked around with coffee dribbled all over my shirt. Gotta love it when someone sees a problem and fixes it for you - particularly a small problem that is overwhelmingly annoying on a daily basis and requires just a small tweak to result in long term happiness.

Today's business:

Treadmill for 45 minutes

buy drapery hooks / rings for my new drapes (do NOT forget the damn coupon!!)

grocery shop

get veg. glycerin to make my home-made soft scrub that I love.

make home-made pizza!

and now I have to go get the dough started so that it will be ready for chomping tonight.